Happy 2016. I'm a little late to the party but that's nothing new. It's a new year and a new beginning. I have new clothes, new shoes, a new internship. But new year, same me. I say it every year and it will never stop being true. In past posts, I have stressed how much of a person I have changed and grown, and I have changed into a more mature person in so many ways, but I am truly the person I have been since high school.
I am
unapologetically myself. A friend once read something I wrote and told me "it was the most Krista thing" she had ever read. What I got from that statement is that it wouldn't hurt for me to tone down my "me-ness" a little. I am a very in-your-face type person. I am so honest it leads to awkward situations. And it doesn't help I'm an exceptionally awkward person. I let everyone know who I am full-frontal because I shouldn’t have to hide parts of myself or act a certain way to different people. Tell it like it is. People tell me I'm outspoken and opinionated. What's wrong with that? I have no filter. It's who I am. I've come a long way to realize the only person I should be is myself.
We all have flaws, physical or personal, insecurities and baggage only a few people know about, but I've learned I shouldn't feel bad about myself for my flaws. I shouldn't have to apologize for the way I act, dress, or who I am in general. We are all different. I've got my messy curly hair, winged eyeliner, too many piercings to remember, scars, and I've learned to be okay with everything that's different. It makes me who I am.
It's a new year, same me because I don't like pretending that I'll make a drastic change in my life because the calendar says January 1. It's not going to be rainbows and butterflies because I decide to starting running again or spend less money (I actually spent half of my winter break in my basement working out and not spending money so maybe my anti-resoulution is working). I can do that anytime but January 1 isn't that day. I understand the appeal of resolutions but I'm not like that. Changing yourself is a gradual act and I have learned this.
We all have flaws, physical or personal, insecurities and baggage only a few people know about, but I've learned I shouldn't feel bad about myself for my flaws. I shouldn't have to apologize for the way I act, dress, or who I am in general. We are all different. I've got my messy curly hair, winged eyeliner, too many piercings to remember, scars, and I've learned to be okay with everything that's different. It makes me who I am.
It's a new year, same me because I don't like pretending that I'll make a drastic change in my life because the calendar says January 1. It's not going to be rainbows and butterflies because I decide to starting running again or spend less money (I actually spent half of my winter break in my basement working out and not spending money so maybe my anti-resoulution is working). I can do that anytime but January 1 isn't that day. I understand the appeal of resolutions but I'm not like that. Changing yourself is a gradual act and I have learned this.
I stay up late and wake up early. I'll email you back at 2 in the morning, but also meet you for a breakfast date the same day. Some days I’m really funny, some days I’m a huge bitch. No shoes, no bra, no problem. I love Disney movies more than a person should and watch a lot of comedy too. I try on clothes I would never buy just to know how it would look. I'm a cynical human being who loves life. I genuinely like being alone and view that as some of my most valuable time. People think my quirks are weird but it's who I am.
I sometimes hate myself. I hate how quiet I am. I think I should have more friends. I hate the way I look. I've come a long way to be comfortable with myself and I don't want to hide it away. Yes, I've changed but I'll always be the girl who loves to talk about Led Zeppelin and argue about anything and I'm going to share everything with you.
I'm not trying to pretend I'm going to change when a new year comes. Instead of creating resolutions for each year, I'm a firm believer in the classic bucket list and create a new bucket list (along with many other bucket lists I have) each year. This year I want to run a 5K, visit a new state, go to a Celtics game, and vote for the first time, among more. As often as I roll my eyes at new years resolutions and the hype surrounding a new year, it's about wanting to change yourself for the better. I am realizing a new year is a good starting point towards a goal. 2015 brought me peace with myself. I can't remember another year I have ever been so at ease with myself and it's because I learned to love myself.
In the always inspiring words of Carrie Bradshaw, "I will never be the woman with the perfect hair, who can wear white and not spill on it, and chair committees, and write thank you notes, and I can't feel bad about that." It's who I am.
I'm not trying to pretend I'm going to change when a new year comes. Instead of creating resolutions for each year, I'm a firm believer in the classic bucket list and create a new bucket list (along with many other bucket lists I have) each year. This year I want to run a 5K, visit a new state, go to a Celtics game, and vote for the first time, among more. As often as I roll my eyes at new years resolutions and the hype surrounding a new year, it's about wanting to change yourself for the better. I am realizing a new year is a good starting point towards a goal. 2015 brought me peace with myself. I can't remember another year I have ever been so at ease with myself and it's because I learned to love myself.
In the always inspiring words of Carrie Bradshaw, "I will never be the woman with the perfect hair, who can wear white and not spill on it, and chair committees, and write thank you notes, and I can't feel bad about that." It's who I am.